Saturday, February 12, 2011

Vamlumtime's Day? Kay....

I need to rant...

I'm really not looking forward to V-Day. I have no problem with those who like Valentine's Day, but personally my aversion to it is that I've never had anyone to share it with (even when I did, it was lame... plus one time I was on my mission) and I've never really felt "loved." I guess that comes from years and years of hate being pushed towards me for no reason. I never felt pretty or wanted, and sometimes I still feel the same way. Whenever I see a couple, especially on Vamlumtime's Day, I feel personally (emotionally, to be specific) "attacked" (yeah, ridiculous, I know). I feel so alone.

I really don't know what else to say... I just needed to write this out. Make it known, I guess.

Night ya'll.


1 comment:

  1. Sheyla! You are beautiful!

    That being are completely NOT alone =) Valentines second name after all is Singles Awareness Day, is it not?

    Now as far as finding love goes...have faith! Things happen on the Lords time and what I've realized is that things happen the easiest when you least expect them. Be happy. Be lovely. Be the kind of change you want to see in the world. (That last one was Ghandi) And in return you'll attract those kind of happy, lovely people to you!!

    When it does happen for'll forget you were ever alone.